thirty is an interesting concept.
and i'm staring it in the face. not that i'm mad, sad, or depressed about it. just baffled. i never imagined in my silly goofy antic-filled life that i'd be "thirty"
i don't feel thirty. tomorrow i'll be thirty
i'm regularly told I don't look thirty (usually somewhere around 23 or 24)
i'm just totally enthralled by the concept of turning thirty.
i have done so much in my/with my life. and at the same time i have done so little.
i've crooned about a party of some kind...but i don't know that it will happen or if it matters. i don't really know enough people in this state, and i don't know that the people i've met really care (which doesn't bother me). plus, there are some people that i'd just love to share something like this with - and those individuals are not here.
i'm thinkin i'll bake cupcakes to bring to work tomorrow. I always loved when people did that in elementary school.
A friend in Phoenix turned 30 a few weeks back and spent the evening driving around in a hearse, celebrating the death of her twenties. I think that's cute - but not me.
I've been thinking back to previous milestone birthdays all week. 16. that was funny. my mom threw a party. we all wore pink. we giggled and ate cake and watched movies until nearly 5am. 21. I didn't drink back then. I think I had an obligatory sip of a cocktail, but that was it. I was surprised the following day with a party/brunch. I literally had no idea. I thought we were just going to have brunch at his parents house. Then, on the way there, he had to stop at the gas station to make a phone call. That was the tipoff for me. I was still surprised, and it was lovely nonetheless. 25. Not really a milestone date, but I will never forget the moment that my insurance company called me and reminded me that my rates were dropping severely due to my age change. That cracked me up.
the concept of turning 30 sparks a voice inside me that tells me to do the following:
- buy a swim pass for the pool accross the street and go EVERY DAY once it opens. I have loved swimming so much in my life, and I haven't done very much of it in the past few years. I want to do more of the things I love.
- put a deposit on a tour for me & the man to go to china. I want to travel outside of the US so bad I can hardly stand it. There are trips that are less expensive, I know it. Some even include airfare. I just have to stop letting my worrysome self (who hoardes money "just in case") keep me from doing the things in life that make me smile. I can always make more money. And if I died tomorrow, having money in the bank would do me NO GOOD.
- I think I'll buy a car this year. I'd like to buy a house first. BUT, I really want a cute, small, economical go getter of my very own. I still have a couple of credit report issues to clear up before I'll do so, but I'm finally feeling like it can happen. I was so stressed about driving for so long after the car accident that I didn't care if I ever bought another car. I'm over it. I love driving. Windows down, music playing, seeing beautiful sights....it's all good stuff! Maybe I'll find another beetle bug to make me smile. I loved that car.