You've heard 'thoughts are things', right? It's true- just become aware enough to really know what's going on inside your skull. That's the challenge. One way to monitor what's going on in your skull is look at how you feel emotionally, your state of health, and what's happening in your life.
I used to live in a place I didn't really care for, and got tired of thinking "I don't really like it here." Life is short, so I changed my locale, and now here in Quirky Burque, I've found a true home- a place I can say I "love." Some might say it's all coincidence, but to me the Universe/God/Higher Power/Quantum Field was really looking out for me and gave me a fantastic place to work (IQ just named Studio Red the city's best hair salon!), a great spiritual community (Christ Unity Church @Candelaria & Eubank in NE- a new thought, progressive practical positive Christian message), and great friends, (not forgetting to mention a fabulous love in my life.) And let me not forget my furry friends, and all the great bike trails around town. Fantastic!
I love what I do for a living. Creating on hair is fun for me. It gives me the creative outlet I crave, no homework after I'm off, and a flexible schedule. My sister said she could never work in a situation where she didn't "have a steady paycheck", so obviously it's not for everyone. But it is for me. I guess I don't mind "flying by the seat of my pants."
When I moved here to ABQ, the only person I knew was my soulmate, R. I knew I would have to put forth some effort to make friends, knowing I wouldn't really feel at home until that was achieved., I jumped into CUC, and found a home of like-minded spiritual souls. That place is soooo accepting (hey, they accepted me, after all)- there is a little bit of everything there- not a limited demographic. I can be my most authentic self there. I remember seeing a sign for the kids that said (paraphrasing), "Are you the kind of friend you'd like to have?" I took that to heart and in 6 months, I've gotten a core group of 'homies", women and men who support me, give me comic relief when I need it, and just accept me w/love and laughter, and without judgment.
I try to nurture myself with my thoughts. I tell myself "I'm a radiant being of light and love." One of my friends here calls me "jubilant." I'm not trying to be all "know-it-all", just demonstrative. What do you say inside your head about yourself? How do you feel about yourself? What do you say out loud about yourself?
If you are having trouble believing in yourself, liking/loving yourself, please try this exercise: Three times a day, look in the mirror at your beautiful face and say out loud three times "I accept myself unconditionally right now!" Try this for 40 days in a row, and see if your self image changes.
That's enough out of me for now.
Loving you always,